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| So make sure with Ur Inner voices |
I'm late to my .NET class, that usually starts by 9am. Now it's already 8.30am, still I have to catch the bus then after I have to walk for 5min to reach my institute. So I planned to go by an auto so that I could be able to reach with in time as I have an important exam.
" Autooo ... !!! " [ Two voices .. ]
The second voice is from the other lady asking something.
Mean while the driver interrupted and replied her as if he came for my turn. The lady tried to convince me as it's an emergency case. But I didn't cared, in fact I'm too busy to care ignoring the cause, believing it might be an attempt to convince me to get into the auto.
I just picked the auto and left for the class. And reached my institute 5min. before the commencement of the exam. But, the sir is late for the class by almost 1&half hour. Then after he conducted the exam and I'm done with it scoring more than expected rounding to 90%. But It's just a test how ever it counts to my performance.
Later when we are in conversation with our sir, he said that his mother-in-law got admitted & he should be there in hospital as she got a stroke in the morning. He left the institute in hurry, leaving a cover in the class. When we checked, its a medicine, that might be of his mother-in-law's. Thinking the same, my friend called the sir to clarify and he is so glad and requested us to get him to the hospital.
As soon we reached, we have seen our sir and the same lady [Sister of Our sir] which I had encountered at the auto in the morning. She recognized and explained me about the situation. Coz of me in the morning, they got late in reaching the hospital and now she, the patient is in ICU for 24hours observation. At that particular moment, I felt very hard, in fact very bad and guilty for my ignorance at the lady.
It got stuck in my mind for several hours thought it might be happened without my intention. I felt like "Vysh" has no meaning for this behavior and felt as if for what I'm being living.
I came back to normal and felt free only after listening to the good news that the patient is in condition and out of danger. How ever she needs bed rest for few days.
Even though I have been blessed in scoring my performance level in such an exam, left a part of guilt with in me deep inside.
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nice post...I think after writing it here u must be feeling much better!
happens..but pls dont waste time with guilt...both the reasons ( ur exams and the mom in laws stroke) are relevant and important in its own way from each persons point of view...but to acertain that ur need was lesser becoz 'if it wasnt for you, the lady wudnt have needed an operation ' is a stupid and insensitive statement...
u wudnt have been feeling so guilty if u had missed the exams and failed and the woman reached the hospital on time and was okay...you wud have been pissed...the whole magnitude of the guilt is becoz the woman suffered and u think its due to u...which, my dear, is simply not the case
@tys: yea wat u said is completely agreed. Evn my frnd told me the same at tht particular moment n by which i felt easy. ThnQ fr ur kind words..